Where to start?

Well clearly I am not meant to be a person who updates their blog on a regular basis. Oh well......

James has turned into a monster and discovered the art of throwing a tantrum, great! It just means that I am ready to murder him at any given time, including when he finds it funny to empty out his box of muesli on my kitchen floor and draw pictures in it. I think it is safe to say that the terrible two's are hitting us already, as my child now throws himself on the floor and has a body wriggling, head banging, smacking, kicking, pinching, scratching, biting, screaming tantrum when he can't get his own way or if we are too slow.

Gareth has just finished his second lot of exams today. We are holding thumbs on that. Since April 16 Gareth has been away in Brentwood for work. Luckily he comes home for weekends, and has had some study leave lately, but I really can't wait for this to be over. Being a single parent to a terrible two's toddler sucks.........

And then me, where do I start? Well, as of Monday I have gone onto part time hours at work. Great! I am heavily overweight and have started Weight Watchers (and have started a second blog about that - maybe I will actually update it every now and then .......lol - http://heavysights.blogspot.com/) and I am starting at the gym on Saturday. I have a special 3 month referal programme from my doctor that I need to do. And then my kind of big, kind of probably not so big, but kind of worrying me news. Since July last year my doctor has been running blood tests on me every so often and since the beginning of the year, every couple of weeks. The have found that my CSR(?) and my ALP(?) levels are up. This is a sign of imflamation in the body, particulary the liver. My GP sent me for a scan, but they could not pick up anything, so she has refered me to the Liver Disease Clinic at Bournemouth Hospital so that I can see a specialist. Now I know that I have no reason to be concerned yet and that this is all probably because I am too fat, but when you see your name on a piece of paper and it says liver disease next to it, it kind of freaks you out a little bit, especially when I know that a friend of mine's Dad got told that he had liver cancer and 6 weeks later he was dead.... yes, I am thinking the worst, but wouldn't you? So I am asking anyone out there that reads this, if you can please muster up any vibes, prayers, thoughts or whatever it is that you do, that there is actually nothing wrong with me, and the 20 odd blood tests that my doctor has run are all wrong or that it is nothing serious. Thank you....

Well, I had better go to bed..... have an early start tomorrow. And we are having the first delivery of Organic Veg and Fruit box (and I added some fresh herbs) tomorrow, and I will need to be bright eyed and bushy tailed to think up recipes with low point values to make with my veggies..... oh and I have to have myself and James up and ready by 7am tomorrow morning.......